This can be quite over due leh!
This rest/tabernacle camp is very unlike the usual camp that i go to .... its one that i felt like nothing great happened... But, little did I know that many little convictions sprang from the camp...
The Opening ceremony ...
Where Pastor Hee Guan shared...all in all, one thing that sprang in my heart is that... - have i been receving and not giving? Not learning how to bless others. Taking my life for granted now..
I decided, then...i should get myself moving... I should not be happy and continue to stay in my comfort zone.. There are various areas that i started looking into lah... like joining Touch as a volunteer (errmm..signed up already..but they have not got back to me...so in God's timing, i shall wait). And, i finally got my big ass out of the sofa, and start to meet people that I've long wanted to catch.
Then Pam's sharing during the rest camp brought further emphasis to what God was already convicting me in... :) Pam shared something that i've long forgotten about... One of the ways to rest..is to serve... At first, when i heard it..i felt it was very ironical. i felt like it was hard to put into action. But, when i really did, i truly understood what it felt like to
So, I met up with Aldric. And i really thank God for him. He has been an encouragement to me during the conversation, how he still acknowledges God in his life... and all that.. His uncle is down with cancer...so he wasn't able to go to church for the past few weeks...so I felt like it was perfect timing that God brought us together again to share lah.. :). So, throughout the conversation, it was just very natural and enjoyable! I really felt that God was showing me the blessings of giving... After that, when i went home, i wrote this in my journal
"Well, thank you that this week..you finally started the passion in my heart - to get myself moving..to no longer stay in my comfort zone. Thank you for tabernacle that you set my heart to want to continue to release compassion and love to others. Thank you, dear Jesus. Thank you for enlarging my heart...because if you didn't, i wouldn't have experience the joy of giving. No wonder you said - Its more blessed to give than to receive.. dear God, please continue to keep my fire going and show me the next step of action. Don't ever let me give up on people. Let me love unceasingly. Let me never give up. .....is just a blessing. Lord, i want to learn to give because it blesses others, it blesses you, and it blesses me. Thank you Jesus for lifting my spirits"
Then Pam's sharing during the rest camp brought further emphasis to what God was already convicting me in... :) Pam shared something that i've long forgotten about... One of the ways to rest..is to serve... At first, when i heard it..i felt it was very ironical. i felt like it was hard to put into action. But, when i really did, i truly understood what it felt like the word of God may sound ironical, but when we, in faith put his word into practice... we can confirm the outcome..This was what I further noted in my journal:
"The best way to relax...is not to sleep, not to sit infront of the tv like a couch potato, not to go out spend money and play... Insteadit is putting energy to love the way you love, Jesus.Thank you for such a great way to rest.Its killing 3 birds with 1 stone!In Jesus Name, Amen!"
Well, I don't know if it was part of Dellia's plan to allow me to go through this to learn that the ability to serve God and his people is not an obligation, but a blessing, a gift from God above. But, it sure did work.
I don't know how long i would take to form my own spiritual family (Fulfilling my dream), but I no longer do feel the pressure as i do in the past. But, all i know is that the ability to serve others through the love of Jesus Christ, is indeed a blessing. So, in whatever ways i can, i pray that i will be blessing to others. And, I believe that as i continue do, He will show me to the family that he has prepared for me! :)
Oh yah, and one more thing to add! I thank God, that since I came back, my sister, xiangjun has been great support to me, and thank God that she has grown so much in loving God. We've recently started our own cell group at home, with jing jing as well! Please pray alongside with us that as we welcome God into our household and our family tat things will start changing in all of our lives. That our entire family will come to know God as our saviour!
Also, dear sisters, thank you for the many prayers and support that you have given to me.. :) I really treasure all of u as my spiritual family!!!!
Hair Standing yet? But, I really mean it!!!!
I DO! hahahaha
Love,
Chin Ling!!!! :)
"Each man should give what he has decieded in his heart to give, not reluctantly or under compulsion, for God loves a cheerful giver."
2 Cor 9:7
